Weekends

The past 2 weekends have been the best weekends I have had in a Loooooong time!
I definitely needed them!

Next weekend should be just as fun with Mike's birthday party!
BOWLING!!!
: )

Jenni and tonight...

We've been friends for 14 years now, crazy!

She and I have been to hell and back and have been through alot together and still have managed to still be friends.

The past few years we've lived together but have been distant.

I've enjoyed hanging out this week, I've missed it.

I'm glad I decided to go out tonight, it sucked at first because I didn't really know anyone but it got better.

It beats sitting at home being depressed.


I also ran into my friend Donna that i grew up dancing with her and her sisters. Its funny because she and I have this tendency to run into each other at random bars downtown that we don't usually go to.

No matter what

No matter what has happened you always make me feel better. :)

You are....

You are the one I always want to run to when i need someone.
You're the one I trust.
You're the one I look forward to talking to everyday.
You're the one that means everything to me.
You're the one that IS my best friend.
You're the one I can't imagine losing.
You're the one who motivates me.

Please forgive me...

I overreact too much.
I'm just weird.

Friend

I could use one right now. I wish i had that friend that I could tell anything to and who would always be there for me and support me.

I feel I have no one.


I know I have friends but none like that.
I need a shoulder to cry on.

I just need a good hug and to be held and to just cuddle.

The only person that I feel I
could be like that with or want to be I know wouldn't and it'd probably just be weird.
I always feel like I have a broken heart and I'm sure I will die if a broken heart too.

I also give up on looking forward to
anything because I always get disappointed cuz it never happens.

I'm just done. I always just deal with it.

Help

Well since I can't help myself and with my nature to take care of everyone else before myself, I'm gonna drive my roommate and friends downtown so they can go to the club. I could stay with them but I'm really not in the mood for it.

Why?

Why do I love and care so much about someone that makes me so depressed and cry alot? I get hurt so much but I'll never say anything because I don't want to start drama or upset them.
I just take it and deal with it. I know they are dealing with alot so i don't want to add on to it.

At least I have my cats. They love me.

Happy Birthday to you!

I just want to wish my BFF Mike a very happy birthday!!!

:)

Love ya Mike! I don't know what I would do without you!

Weeeeeee!!!!!

:)
I'm drunk, i never get drunk really. Yay!

Glee...

Why are you so amazing? You just get better and better! :)

I don't know what I will do without you.

Brrr...

Why is it so cold!!!???

Back to reality...:(

Leaving the cabin now. :(
I don't want to go back...
Tomorrow is gonna SUUUCK!!!

Stuffed

Ugh ate so much food, but it was amazing! Mmmm...wish I could eat like that everyday!

Lonely

How come even with all these friends and people around I still feel lonely, out of place, and feel like crying. :(

Love...

Is there such a thing as loving someone too much or caring about someone too much or caring about them more than you should?

Weight loss

Well so much for the 4 lbs I lost this week...i believe i ate it all back tonight and it will just continue through the weekend. :/
Lots of yummy food!

Having lots of fun though!

Sitting...

I'm sitting here waiting for my oil to be changed...boring...the TV is on HLN and all they are talking about is the Trayvon Martin/George Zimmerman case...
Isn't there any other news out there?

Back to bejeweled I go...

Early to bed...early to rise...

I hate it! I have fallen asleep early the past 2 days and it sucks. Been waking up at like 5 anfd can't go back to sleep. :/
Its probably because Michael's been going to bed early so the lights are ouy and with no noise and not a constant stimulation like texting I fall asleep.

Also since I've been falling asleep early, I haven't gotten to talk to Mike much this week. :(

So happy today is my last day of the week for work. This week has been awful for me :/
I don't think anything good has happened but I know of a million bad things.
I definitely need this mini getaway.

Sigh

I just need to shut my mouth sometimes...
I try to just keep coming up with stuff to talk about and I fail at the choice of topics :(

Being a girl

Once a month I hate being a girl! Ha! I l know you really wanted to know that!

I do wish I was more girly though sometimes...I just feel weird when I dress up and where something nice...unless its a special occassion.

To be honest I think there are a few reasons i'm just a jeans and t-shirt type person...

1st my mom...she NEVER wears anything but jeans...I think I've seen her in a dress once.
2nd my brother...anytime I would ever wear a skirt in high school he'd make fun of me and be like why are you wearing a skirt and such...made me very self conscious.
Oh well. I should get over it.
I'm just fashionably inept and feel I look stupid in anything that is considered fashionable.
I need a new wardrobe so I feel better about myself. When I dress better I feel better. I just need clothes that fit my odd body shape. I need to know ehat I should and shouldn't wear.

Hmmmm...maybe one day.

Ugh...

I'm so unmotivated!

"No Day But Today!"

Mike's favorite quote...but its very true.

Today was a great much needed day! I got to see my 3 best friends, it couldn't be better.
First the gym with Helen and Jan...its so much better to go with them, I'm much more motivated. Elaina was missed as she usually comes but couldn't cuz she had to watch her kid.
Yummy dinner at Panera.

The night ended with a good movie, "The Vow". It was much better than I expected. I'm really glad Mike joined us! That was alot of fun! Glad he also got to meet my 2 other best friends.

I don't know what I would do without the 3 of them!

iPhone

I want to throw my phone!!!! Well not anymore, but that's how I felt yesterday...
The stupid home button works when it feels like it...
After driving all over creation to AT&T and going to the Apple store in the mall, Apple was like oh its definitely broken, $150 for a replacement which I said "HELL NO!"

The guy made a work around which was nice so I can still use it until I decide to get a new phone or I get someone to fix it...

but then alas, the home button randomly started working late last night again...
WTF???

grumble...

Birthdays...

Lots of birthdays happening this month
Last night was Jenni's birthday (My roommate)...I didn't want to go out to dinner because I wasn't feeling social, but I did because I knew it would mean a lot to her. It started out kind of awful...first she got me to dress up(which i never do especially just to go out for dinner) and then when we got to the place it was so crowded and we had to wait for an hour for table.  We went upstairs to the outdoor patio bar which was neat, but crowded and standing for an hour in one place in heels blows. ha. 

We finally ate and the service and food sucked, oh well.

Once back at the house it wasn't so bad since I could just go to my room whenever.  I tried not to be a party pooper cuz usually I am.

It was fun...I got to catch up with some old friends that hadn't seen in a while, saw my usual good friends, and met some nice new people.

Next weekend is Helen's birthday and I'm sad I'll miss it, but I REALLY need my mini vacation.

Then It's Mike's birthday...BOWLING! : )

it still hurts everytime :(

And I just cry.

Sigh...over it?

So i say but I don't think I ever really am. I hold grudges...I hears its because I'm a Gemini.

Annoying

Somedays I feel like no matter who I talk to or what its about they are annoying me. :(

Dreams

I had and remember 3 really weird dreams last night...

Wonder what they meant or why I remember them.

Firsts

Life is full of many firsts...tonight will be my first post in the new blog.